Sometimes when i sit down quietly by myself, i usually ask myself. Why can't i accept it? I've chosen this and i must accept everything about it no matter bad or good because it's my choice. I can accept everything about you because i know that no one is 100% perfect in this world. Even myself is not perfect. I love everything about you. You are very unique to me. But there's one and only thing that i cannot accept it no matter what. I always keep on cheating myself that i'm okay with it. Be open minded! He knows what he is doing. Finally, i knew it that this doesn't work on me. I feel sad and a little bit disappointed that at first you've chosen the wrong pathway. I never voice out my real feeling because i know if i voice it out, it won't really help much. The most you will say is, i'm sorry! I believe that you can change this pathway if you try your best. This is depends on whether you want to do it or not. If you want to change, yes! You can. But if you don't want, it's okay! I cannot say much and cannot control you much. I haven't reach the stage that i can 100% fully have control on you. Just do what you think is right. You are an adult now and you know what is good and bad. You can differentiate between good and bad. Please make the right choice. I do not want to always worry about you. I'm not saying that i don't want to care about you. It's another way round. Another type of worry because of the pathway you've chosen before.
Please take care of yourself. Health is much more important that enjoyment. You are healthy, you can have all the enjoyment. If you are sick, i can assure you that you have nothing but SUFFER!
I'm not going to say all those again because i do not want any argument between us. I'll just stay quiet and let you think by yourself. This might the last time i say this to you.
i did all this because i love you and i care about you. i hope you understand.
